Welcome to another Routine & Ritual Thursday! What did you write down last week? Did you chew it over and consider your writing at all? Did it spark your imagination?
My writing inspired me to consider what I want, for real. Not what my ego, or perception of self wants, but what I REALLY want. To be honest - I am still very far from a clear answer. Separating the ego from the true self is difficult. It has many layers, and the potential for false or multiple centers. None of this is bad. This is the magic that makes us human.
Want to know a secret? I can indulge in all of them, and change direction at any moment. This is something I need to remind myself. I can dive in deep or abandon a project at the drop of a pin. So can you. While you may have a marriage, your journey is not a marriage.
Make a list this week. Do not judge the list. Make a list of what you consider "failures" and a list of "successes". Again, do not judge the list. This is hard. We are making a list with the intention of suspending our "self" from the things we have done. Make this list, and if you feel compelled to justify things, look into why you feel that way, and to whom are you justifying?
I often get lost in thought, especially while running or driving considering things I've done, or want to do. I think about why, what influenced me. Did the influence come from a lack of something else?
Did I feel like I needed to do it in order to fit in, or fulfill some self-imposed image need? Sometimes I have an answer, sometimes not.
I pulled another card today. I've been really into them and listening to my intuition lately, and it feels good to nurture this spirituality. The card I pulled is
"Obstacles are detours in the right direction".